"I never want to marry!"
"I would HATE to wake up to the same person every single day."
"Ugh, kids, I love them, but not for me."
"That woman is whipped like a pony, doing her husbands laundry and cooking him dinner, I will NEVER be like that."
ALL phrases that have left my lips. That was before I met his crazy skinny white dude who introduced himself as "knowing my cousin"... I blew the guy off... who the heck does he think he is? Like trying to hit on me in a bar is going to get him anywhere...?
Uh... yeah... well, We had round 2 at a different event the very same week... that week, HE caught MY eye... well, ear, he spoke of the B-52's.... yes, the B-52's is what brought Keith and I together... bands just don't get the prop they deserve...
And here I am... just finished my meal plan for two weeks, have a nice hot dinner ready for my man when he comes home from work, while I stay home with the muchkin.
WHA-?
Huh?
Ever have those moments where you sit and look back think, "Woah! When did I get here?"
Not in a bad way, no no no... I'm super happy.
But I expected myself to be super happy living it up in Seattle. Or backpacking through Europe with no place to call home and working from city to city just so I can make it through to my next adventure.
NEVER thought I'd be here...
But its CRAZY how life throws you a curve ball, you duck, then get hit anyway because your depth perception sucks and you suddenly have your eyes open this whole world you never thought you wanted.
Why?
Crazy little thing called Love.
L-O-V-E... does silly thing to a independent artist who is deteremined not to confine herself to the norms of what society expects me to become!!!!!! AHHHHHH!!! I am a FREE woman!!!!
Truth is. I have never been happier. More free. And more at peace with life than I am now.
So next time life throws you a curve ball and you get hit... it might be the hit you needed to see straight... or crooked.
<3
Thursday, August 2, 2012
Wednesday, August 1, 2012
I'm Sorry
Its one to those things...
It makes me kinda of angry at myself. Thinking I was doing something just and for a good cause, and in the end, wasn't at all what I should be doing. When I sit back and God slaps me with conviction, and I hang my head and say, "I suck."
In this Chick-fil-a deal, I was, and still am, sort of upset that people were so outraged abut a Christian man expressing his Christian views when he was asked. I mean, come on, should be be surprised? Do we need to be so hateful when someone expresses something we don't agree with or support? NO!
So what was my response? SUPPORT THEM! Which I do, I support someone having the nerve to stand up for their often looked down upon beliefs.
AND THEN.......
My amazing sister in the Lord showed me an blog, written by a Christian, as much as I love my gay cousin(s) and family and friends, my support of Chick-fil-a and eating their sandwich, me showing my support by eating their sandwich and posting pictures of all the support many of us Christians were giving.... this article opened my eyes to how UN-loving this act was. As much as I am for what Jesus stood for, shoving a sandwich and an agenda in others face via Facebook was NOT what Jesus would do.
Jesus would turn the other cheek, Jesus DIED for them, LOVED them, HEALED them, DEFENDED them... He didn't set out to prove who is wrong and who is right.
So to any of you whom I may have hurt by this UNLOVING act, I apologize. I do my best to try and be like Christ and today I did not do that.
Jesus told me to LOVE my ENEMIES, ya know, the ones who bash you, what you believe and how you choose to live.
Jesus told me to PRAY for those who persecute me...
I did NOT do that. Instead I got full of pride behind a company instead of my Lord and Savior.
I was wrong. And it sucks. I felt I was helping support the Christian community and I was... but I was NOT supporting Christ.
I'm sorry. I hope All my friends and family forgive me. I still stand by what I believe, but shoving it in your face was WRONG, I was WRONG....
Blah...
But I thank the Lord for convicting me and shoving my chicken sandwich pride down my throat and showing me that I was wrong...
It makes me kinda of angry at myself. Thinking I was doing something just and for a good cause, and in the end, wasn't at all what I should be doing. When I sit back and God slaps me with conviction, and I hang my head and say, "I suck."
In this Chick-fil-a deal, I was, and still am, sort of upset that people were so outraged abut a Christian man expressing his Christian views when he was asked. I mean, come on, should be be surprised? Do we need to be so hateful when someone expresses something we don't agree with or support? NO!
So what was my response? SUPPORT THEM! Which I do, I support someone having the nerve to stand up for their often looked down upon beliefs.
AND THEN.......
My amazing sister in the Lord showed me an blog, written by a Christian, as much as I love my gay cousin(s) and family and friends, my support of Chick-fil-a and eating their sandwich, me showing my support by eating their sandwich and posting pictures of all the support many of us Christians were giving.... this article opened my eyes to how UN-loving this act was. As much as I am for what Jesus stood for, shoving a sandwich and an agenda in others face via Facebook was NOT what Jesus would do.
Jesus would turn the other cheek, Jesus DIED for them, LOVED them, HEALED them, DEFENDED them... He didn't set out to prove who is wrong and who is right.
So to any of you whom I may have hurt by this UNLOVING act, I apologize. I do my best to try and be like Christ and today I did not do that.
Jesus told me to LOVE my ENEMIES, ya know, the ones who bash you, what you believe and how you choose to live.
Jesus told me to PRAY for those who persecute me...
I did NOT do that. Instead I got full of pride behind a company instead of my Lord and Savior.
I was wrong. And it sucks. I felt I was helping support the Christian community and I was... but I was NOT supporting Christ.
I'm sorry. I hope All my friends and family forgive me. I still stand by what I believe, but shoving it in your face was WRONG, I was WRONG....
Blah...
But I thank the Lord for convicting me and shoving my chicken sandwich pride down my throat and showing me that I was wrong...
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