Fat Jeanene, Fat Jeanene... GO AWAY!

This is going to be very freakin' hard for me. Its only day one of retrying to transition my eating to a more extreme level.

Extreme circumstances cause for extreme measures.

I have looked too long at the fozen pizza in the fridge (for Keith when I don't feel up to cooking).

At Abi's breakfast sausage and bisquits.

At the bags of chips.

At the Ramen.

I don't usually eat these anyway, but now that I am focusing hardcore, its like they are SCREAMING at me. "We will fill you up and we taste A-M-A-ZING!"

"I know you do! I know you taste amazing! Shut your piehole!"

Pardon the rants and complaints and the weakness I may blast on here but this moment in my life has been far too delayed for far too long.

I need a damn kidney and I need it NOW. I wanna see my kid grow up. I wanna grow old with my husband. And I want to feel better, which is how I will feel once I get my kidney.

The time is now. I have to kick it up.

NOW!

Tantrums? Whats it mean?

In the role of motherhood, I have found to be very blessed in how things have gone with my daughter. From her lack of wanting a paciffier to easy transition to cups from bottles and now in the new challenge of "She is potty trained! WAIT! No she isn't." dance we're doing right now.

I have been witness and been told of childrens tantrums and such and I am at a loss. Because not only has my child never done that but my brothers didn't, and I didn't, and none of the kids I babysat ever did these things.

So are tantrums more frequent in this new era of motherthood?

This is what I seem to think right now.

Websites say every parent SHOULD experience one and that each toddler should have one a week...

So if my kid doesn't do that, what does that mean? Well, to some moms, they think I am calling them bad moms or that their kid is a bad kid. To other moms, they think I am bragging. But HONESTLY this is something I don't encounter. The two times my kid has tried was QUICKLY estinguished and has happened, like TWICE, in her 3 years on this planet. So what does it mean?

I know if I even TRIED to throw a tantrum, my mom would nip it in the butt BEFORE I even thought of getting out of hand. Is it in the ethinicity? Is it in technique? Is it in my childs personality (which even she is VERY independent and willfull)?

What is it? What is it that makes me child so much more less "tantrum-y" than the "average toddler" (I say that according to the mommy blogs and websites I have searched this up on).

Feel free to express your open opinion and what you think because this honestly boggles my mind as to why "most kids" do it, yet I am not witness to any children I have cared for or watched ever doing it.