This past month and a half have been pretty crazy around us.
Health issues, ending relationships and friendships and families coming together in trials.
I'm not going to explain what has happened in our family, as its not my story to tell, but its had a major impact on us.
A vague explanation, someone made a choice in their life to remove themselves from a life they said they wanted. Handled it in the worst possible way ever and left a mess for our family to clean up.
In the process, I lost a friend.
A friend I loved like a sister.
So, although I had made a choice to remove myself from the problem, its been bothering me significantly.
When I allow someone in my life, I allow them full access. Which is only a handful of individuals. This friend I lost, literally felt like I was punched in the gut. And even made worse by their public displays on Facebook of the choice they made, which was away from me.
So, my anger so recently displayed on Facebook was due to two people effectively walking out of my life and flipping the bird at me, metaphorically.
I take things personally. So sue me!!
My heart is still hurt from the loss and from the pain others peoples HORRIBLE choices have impacted those I love.
But I am trying to let it go.
Its just hard.
I know a lot of you have been worried since most of you know I am not an angry or hateful person. I will admit, these past events have made me VERY angry and I have acted immaturely in some aspects, but alas, I am human.
I am currently trying to wash my hands of the people who washed their hands of me (and those I love), its just turning out to be a lot tougher than I would like.
