My mind is going a billion different directions. My heart hurts and I have no peace on what burdens me.
I have been brought up to fight to the end. That only until there is NOTHING left to fight for, I keep fighting.
Moses wondered through the desert for 40 years TRUSTING in God. And yet for most people, they fight until they get tired.
Ironic how I gave in after 4 days to an immature persons actions and now see myself learning from what I say to myself as I write. I gave into my anger, my frustration and intense will to make someone who didn't care to see their faults try and see them... when I know that coming from me, it wouldn't matter. I said things I shouldn't have, but I'll admit it was a bit of ignorant justice.
I still hope the issue resolves and we can be civil. I completely dislike cutting off people. I just wish people could agree to disagree, respect each other in their beliefs and go on in life.
I wish I could make everyone see my heart and know its not angry, hateful or judgemental. Its hurting for the people I see posting on Facebook daily. The things they say, the way they behave and the choices they make that aren't for the benefit of them or their families. I know everyone makes mistakes. But it hurts my heart and I tend to feel the need to carry peoples burdens. I guess because I think I can.
Bah. What a rant. I write between serving dinner to my family, watching some Americas Got Talent and bathtime and pre bedtime playtime. When my mind stops focusing on the distraction, it tends to go into overdrive and take over.
Ugh. Lousy situations all around me. I really hope the Lord opens eyes, gives peace, saves souls and changes relationships through all this chaos.
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